this is where my lifting shit goes

01.26.23 | since egodeath my mind has entirely changed about my body, i instead appreciate my progress rather than constantly obessing over improvement. I still continue to train hard as its neccesary the health of my brain and body, my future sucess, confidence, etc. my focus has shifted to that of the martial artist or athlete rather than bodybuilder. its awesome to be happy with that part of myself after all this time. maybe one day i will reach self-actualization :)

06.10.22 | hit a 175 benchpress yesterday, it went easy too. felt comfortable. also hit a 225 squat a couple weeks ago, was super proud of that one, even though its not that impressive by lifter standards. been keeping my diet consistently much higher calorie, and im noticing a considerable difference in how i feel in the gym and also how im looking. kind of realizing now that i will never hit that peak insane phyisique i wanted unless i get on gear, which isnt worth it to me so thats not happening. i guess here to hoping even without gear i can still end up looking aesthetic as fuark brah.

03.30.22 | i got really down the last week, didnt lift at all. today is a new day and im picking it back up. i watched this video for the nth time, and it really got me fired up to crush some iron. i need to overcome the invasive thoughts inside my head and focus my mind in order to lift with maximum intensity. Crom, I have never prayed to you before. I have no tongue for it. No one, not even you, will remember if we were good men or bad. Why we fought, or why we died. All that matters is that two stood against many. That's what's important! Valor pleases you, Crom... so grant me one request. Grant me revenge! And if you do not listen, then the HELL with you!

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